Hehe.. another of my fav song...
It is ugly by sugababes

When I was 7
They said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was OK
They said you're more beautiful
And that's the way they show they wish
They had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous cos

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
My personality reflects me
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
Cos I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
My personality reflects me
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
My personality reflects me
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realises how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be

Cos people are all the same
(The same, the same)
And we only get judged by what we do
(What we do, yeah, yeah)
My personality reflects me
And if I'm ugly then
(Yeah, you)
So are you
So are you

People are all the same
(Oh, oh, oh)
And we only get judged by what we do
(What we do, yeah)
My personality reflects me
And if I'm ugly then
(Yeah, so are you)
So are you
So are you

To jieyi, i dun wanna continue the chain but i give u some face and do task no. 1 lor..

Rules of the game:
1. Post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.
2. At the end, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this, and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED!" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.

Wierd stuff 1:
I have spilt personality!!
I am very different when i am in the morning as compared to when i am at night.. in the morning, i am a devil.. i like to suan ppl, like to scold ppl, like to shout at ppl, like to talk loudly, like to gossip, any bad things, u can link to me.. but at night i am an angel, i am sensitive, thoughtful, nice, sweet, caring and all the good stuff(but nv hmuble;p).. Actually i dunno abt it one, but that's wad one of my fren told me.. then i realise.. maybe as u all are reading this blog u may not recognise me, cos perhaps i usu write blog at nite, that's why i sounds different from the person that u all noe.. and i can write such clever things that i dun even know how come my mind think liddat..
Hmm. i suppose everyone has a spilt personality, one being who u wanna be and one being who u truely are..

Wierd stuff 2:
Whenever i am making major decision, i will think of my fav phrase "where ever u go, go with all ur heart" .. Then i will ask myself if my heart is willing to go all the way and then i make the decision

Wierd stuff 3:
I told alot of ppl but no one believe me!! I am actually a VERY QUIET AND PASSIVE person.. I DUN LIKE TO TALK..

Wierd stuff 4:
When i am young, i used to make my own textbk from young generation magazines or newspaper to impart knowledge to my soft-toys.. I guess being a teacher was my dream..

Wierd stuff 5:
I always want to have a mafia bf, must be those leader one, dun wan those sidekicks.. haha.. then he must die somehow such that he can be my unrequited love..

Hmm.. My DW plan is NOT working.. Nth wrong with the plan.. it's juz plain me... cos i too lazy le la... Also it's been raining... so i cant walk home!!! haha... now becoming fatter!!! Die!!

Hmm.. told u all that my work is very slack rite? NOW IT'S NOT!!! got SOOO muzh to do man.. sigh...

Hmm.. gonna be end of the year le.. i got so much entries tt i wanna type but no time!!

Entries coming up..

1. the chain tag from jy
2. review of this yr - my class
3. review of this yr - my other fren
4. review of this yr - myself
5. letter to pot, jy and sl, well, i promised to put it b4 Christmas;p
6. new yr resolution
7. Others tt i am missing out cos i forgot it for the time being!!

My DW project

DW: Decelerate Weight-gain / Dead Weight (means no gain weight) / Decrease Weight

1. Walk home from mrt

2. Climb stairs back home

3. 40 sit ups

4. 40 push ups

5. 200 skippings

6. I think is too lil.. anyone got any other suggestions?

Other processing projects

A. Learn an instrument (either piano or tao di)

B. Learn a new language (hand signal or German ir Japanese)

C. Volunteer at somewhere

D. Learn a skill (knitting or massaging)

E. WRITE MY SCRIPTS!! (got so much ideas but all not written out yet!!)



Hmm... hopefully i can accomplish all of them..

Hmm.. Some thoughts after watching mo jie..

Actually after watching so many damas hor, i really start to wonder will i every find someone i like.. i really think i am too conceited to fall in love with anyone..

I have serious difficulties with regard to commitment.. I dun think i can ever commit to anything in my life.. i told farah that i will definitely divorce if i get married.. she told me maybe i haven't found the right guy, but i really doubt tt anyone in this world can ever make me commit, not even God..

i dun wanna tie myself down to anything.. maybe is becos i am young and reckless but i really dun see myself settling down..

Actually i tried to settle down before.. when i first when to church, i really feels tired of adventure and wanted to settle down.. but then as time passes, i begin to be tired of it.. i started to look forward to adventure, but yet i am tied down by numerous responsibilities in the church.. I struggled very hard between my passion + impulse and the responsibilities + commitment.. In the end, i deicided to get on with my life to persue wadever i wanna become, to be reckless, to not regret it even if it will cost my life or even afterlife..

well, i nv actually told anyone the whole story on why i quit church.. i only told some frens abt how i got pressurized by ppl in church and that i dun feel any real frenship after the only 4 who treated me as fren left.. also the fact that i strongly refuse to accept the concept of "hell" as it is such a cruel and depressing idea.. but wad's said above in the previous para is the other side of the story.. the part where i am in the wrong, the part that i refused to admit even to myself.. i dun wan myself to be so --- immature, but sometimes i juz wan to be..

When i made the decision to leave the church, or maybe like wad the church ppl will say, to fall into hands of satan, i made the decision knowing that i may fall into the fire of hell.. and i dun mind to, becos i juz want to follow my own ideals.. you can say that i am a fool, or scold me "stupid" like my church ppl did when i told them my decision, but i juz want to be conceited, to be full of my own ideals until the very end...

So i am like Hitler now, i believe in myself..

i wan to live in my own fairyland, where everyone arnd me is happy, alive or dead, i am not a bootlicker, but i really love to please ppl arnd me as i love to see ppl arnd me being happy..
maybe it is becos i am so conceited, that when i see ppl are happy becos of my efforts, i feel happy too..

MY fav phrase of all time, as many of u know is "where ever u go, go with all your heart" ... Whenever i realised that not all my heart is willing to stay at one place,

i'll leave, and that's me..

Hmm.. i juz finished watching mo jie (magic ring) yesterday.. it's so super duper nice... Hmm.. think i got over my pot.. shld be able to start on fma and it all started with a kiss soon..

My sis come back from cambodia and bought a co percussion instrument.. the one that u gua to make sound.. i last time got play b4 in the huan le de huai bei.. she last time also bought some blowing instruments for me when she go china.. haha.. i look so musical meh?

Watched 5566 concert!! i am so seduced by my ren fu la.. he keep being so cute and handsome and cool and nice and brave and serious and sweet etc etc and i juz couldn't take my eyes off him!! anyway i think the concert rocks and siling rocks too cos she pei me go for the concert:D

I really love this song... It's when i'm gone by Eminem..

Yeah...
It's my life...
Lone words I guess...


Have you ever loved someone so much you give an arm for
Not the expression, NO, literally give an arm for
When they know they are your heart and you know you are their armor
And you will destroy anyone who will try to harm her
But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you ?
And everything you stand for, turns on you despite you ?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain
"Daddy look what I made"
Dad's got to go catch a plane
"Daddy, where's Mommy, I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don’t know, go play, Hailey baby, your daddy's busy
Daddy's writing a song, the song ain't gonna write itself
I give you one under dog and you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around in that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother... whose a spittin image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocker by baby


...And when I'm gone, just carry on... don't mourn.
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,
And I ain't gon' feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain.
Just smile back...
...And when I'm gone, just carry on... don't mourn.
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,
And I ain't gon' feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain.
Just smile back...


I keep having this dream, I'm pushing Hailie on the swings
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing.
You're making mummy cry. Why ? Why is mummy crying?
Baby, daddy ain't leaving no more – “daddy you're lying.”
You always say that, You always say this is the last time,
But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you are mine.
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
Daddy please, daddy don't leave, daddy, no stop it.
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket.
It's got a picture, It'll keep you safe daddy, take it with you
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These sinking walls must be talking, Cause man I can hear ‘em.
They're saying : "You have got one more chance to do right, and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love them before it's too late."
And just as I go to walk out my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...


...And when I'm gone, just carry on... don't mourn.
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,
And I ain't gon' feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain.
Just smile back...
...And when I'm gone, just carry on... don't mourn.
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,
And I ain't gon' feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain.
Just smile back...


Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they are throwing roses at my feet.
I take a bow and Thank You all for coming out
They’ screamin is so loud, I take one last look at the crowd.
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, HELP mummy her wrists are bleeding!"
But baby WE'RE IN SWEEDEN, how did you get to Sweeden ?
I followed you daddy, you told me that you weren't leaving.
You lied to me dad, and now you make mummy sad
And I bought you this coin, it says "Number One Dad".
That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin
I get the point... fine, me and mummy are going.
But baby wait... - It's too late dad, you made the choice
Now go up there and show them that you love them more than us.
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep screaming your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep... Just take another pill...
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it... Yeah, Word, Keep it real.
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, That the curtain is closing on me.
I turn around, find a gun on the ground
Cock it, Put it to my brain and scream "Die Shady!" and PUMP IT.
The sky darkens, My life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes.
That's when I wake up, Alarm clock screamin and there's birds singing
It's spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk up to Kim and kiss her.
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister.
Almost as if to say...


...And when I'm gone, just carry on... don't mourn.
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,
And I ain't gon' feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain.
Just smile back...
...And when I'm gone, just carry on... don't mourn.
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,
And I ain't gon' feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain.
Just smile back...

Hmm.. read my frenz entry..

"i wish but i know.. friends will not be forever.. no matter how many times u write that in bday cards or autograph books.. they're only passing phase in ur life.. no matter how i try to convince myself.. they won't be here for me everytime.. ..

i wish.. 20 yrs in the future.. i'd look back.. n think: ahhhh those days are certainly happy times... but.. will the sky 20yrs later be still the same? will the ppl who're in my life now be still the same? will i still be the same? i shldn't dream"

hmm.. it's true that everyth may not be the same many years later... we may become strangers or even arch enemy... u'll nv know.. but what is most impt is now we shall live our life to the fullest, what i mean is to do the things u wanna do such that when u look back, whether u succeeded or not, at least u know that u've tried hard and u have not let urself down in anyway.. another thing is also to leave the best memories.. frenzship may fade, but the memories can nv be taken away from u.. the unique feelings that u once experienced with ya fren will always stays in ur heart, well at least in my heart.. even thou some frenz u may not even hav anyth to say to them when u meet them again, but somehow, whenever u recall the memories u had had with them, it's juz so heartwarming...

I always believe that thou frenship may not last 4eva, the feeling that one experienced in a frenship will continue to preserve forever in one's heart..

My com sucks.. load so so so so so so slow!!!

lAST CHRISTMAS

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special


Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special


Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby, do you recognise me?
Well it's been a year it doesn't surprise me
(Happy Christmas!)
I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again


Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special


Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special


A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on


A face of a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again


Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special


Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
A face of a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Maybe next year
I'll give it to someone
I'll give it to someone special

I Hate myself!!!

Everyone Hates me!!!

I really think i have no fren...

No one wanna help me!!!

Utterly depressed:(

Juz went to update my profile... Can refer to Me to see the changes..

Hmm.. actually i think i am a very shallow person..

But what's wrong with being shallow and simple.. At least i'll worries free... haha..

Sometimes i tried to be not so shallow... But i will feel that i am juz being hyprcrite to act profound... Isn't being shallow more youthful and true to myself?

Watched reaching for the star.. the male lead says that actually it is always oneself who went seeking for trouble but not trouble seeking for one.. I quite agree... but...

To be careless does makes one happier, but isn't it juz running away from reality? Should one juz go upfront and confront it?

Anyway this is to yuying in case my tag is not uploaded at ur blog... " As long as u think that u are bad, u will get better"

That's why i always like to think of myself as someone bad..

Juz realised i got alot to do!! I mean watch.. haha.. Besides all that were stated, more are adding on!! Die!! I still stuck at pot!!!

And i wanna watch pride and prejudice and ru guo ai(forgot the el name all of a sudden)!!

Anyway I BOUGHT 5566 CONCERT TICKETS!! SO EXCITING!! I bought the $100 tickets at $30 on ebay!!

But i very sad again cos i juz realised that day is my percussion outing!! I have been so looking forward to that outing!! But i no rmb the date of that outing cos i saved it on my hp.. Only after i bought the tickets then i realised!! I was so utterly depressed!!! AAAAAHHHHH... If i have realised it earlier, i won't be gg!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

Anyway juz saw a grade A handsome guy on mrt.. I rarely give ppl grade A one lor.. the highest i give was a B-.. Hahaha.. but that guy really caught my eyes.. If i am a talent scout i will definitely approach him...

ANyway juz realised i got alot of things to buy:
Pauline bday present
Secret Santa present 1
Secret Santa present 2
Cherie Bday present
Other Christmas presents
New bag
Bai Se Ju Ta Vcd

I am utterly BROKE!!!

Caution

Very Disgusting

Hmm.. I gonna start my story!! If u haven't have ur meal yet, or juz had ur meal, or gg to sleep soon, i advice u to not read it...

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I am starting...

Today i went toilet, to do some BIG business... When i flush, the water GUSHED OUT instead of being sucked in.. In the end, water overflow out of the toilet bowl onto the floor, nonstop!! I jumped as a feeble attempt to avoid the gushing flow of water... But gravity eventually pulled me back.. luckily i am not wearing slippers
!! The "business" did not flow out of the toilet bowl, but it float happily in the toilet bowl, threatening to flow out anytime.. EEEEEEEEEEE!!

I tried to flush again, cos i feel bad to leave the toilet in this condition, however, it juz worsen the situation!! I quickly run out of the cubicle and wad's next i do not know but i feel very guilty towards the cleaner..

That's all:s

I met my cousin on bus yesterday!!!!

It's such a BIG thing!!! I nv see my cousin for so so so so so so long!!! So exciting to see him!! Initially when he called my name, i can't recognise him!! Tot he's my pri sch classmate or sth.. In the end realised is my cousin!! haha... so happy to see him!!

Hmm.. lets talk abt my cousin cos i am so happy to see him!! He is my childhood mate.. As most of my fren knows. my sisters are very much older than me, so i got no playmate at home when i am young.. so i will usually go to my grandma hse where my cousin also stays there to play with him and his younger brothers.. hehe.. Now u all know why i so boyish le ba... cos i grew up like a boy wad.. haha... We loved to play, talk and even fight with each other.. The most enjoyable thing is actually to ostracise our other irritating cousin.. Hehe.. Also he's 2 yrs younger than me.. that's y i like iggy so much cos he reminded me of my cousin!!

Hmm.. seeing my cousin reminds me so so so much of my memorable childhood!! When i saw him yesterday, it's so surprising that we still have so much to talk abt:D

Hehe.. it's so exciting to see my cousin!! COol!! Hope that i can see him soon!!

Finished my korean dramas..

Now pending:
PRINCE OF TENNIS!!!
Naruto
1 litre of tears
qian jung bai fen bai
18 yrs old bride
FMA

Now watching on tv:
SEA games!! Singapore rocks!!! Haha..
Reaching for the stars!!! It's damn nice!!
Star awards!! Hope Fann Wong win the best actress!!! Hope Julian Hee wins too!!

Want to watch:
Bai se ju ta!!! Who can lend me??!! I missed ALL episodes!!
Project Runaway!~! Keep forgetting!!
Star idol and Super host!! Not that i like them.. juz wanna watch but keep missing.. haha..

Aiya... now gonna go watch Star Awards... no time!! Bye!!