Held a farewell party for yuying today at caren's house... well, we have a great time and everything but at the end of it, when we were leaving caren's house, farah was saying she was gg to cry and then her eyes brim with tears and yy's also... then suddenly, i felt a lump emerging slowly from the throat and i struggled to swallow it...

i dunno why i suddenly feel like crying... i think i am easily influenced by ppl arnd me, by their feelings...

but the prospects of not meeting for the next one yr(which is later mentioned), well yy says she prob be back next june/july, thou i nv tot abt it exactly how long it'd
be, seemed appalling...

well, i rarely think of the future, or even think ahead... when ppl arnd me were fearing exams, i nv see it coming till like maybe 1 week ago... when ppl nw anticipating uni life, i seriously nv hav given it a thought... i juz look forward to it cos i am too bored at home... nv thought wad will happen... when ppl are alr planning what they may wan to do with their life, i still wonder if why did i choose acct... maybe i am influenced by my sis, seeing that acct is a rather safe choice, but another reason is that i dunno wad i wanted... thou i used to say that i wanna go mass comm, but i dun think i really wanted it... i dunno wad i want and there is too lil time to think... when ppl praises this subj then i feel like taking it... there isn't any sense of want, juz succumbing to influence.... sigh...

yups, back to the one yr... well, according to wanx/val, i can't rmb who, she said that it will pass quickly, as we'll all be busy with our stuff and before we know it, it'd one year...

well, i really wonder how each of us will be like after one yr... but i am too lazy to think abt it since i will know it as it comes, no use trying to deduce...

well, think i shall say sth abt yuying... well, i always like her... she's really nice... well, i'd always rmb her asking me whether i am feeling left out when she observes that i did not speak much during our past few meetings... well, i forgot wad i told her... i also can always see that she tries to make me feel involved by maybe suddenly asking for my opinion during the clique's conversations... but i always ended up feeling guilty cos i always shrugged off or give like one/two word(s) opinion(as i said in previous entry, i am not good at conversing) whenever she'd make the effort... but nevertheless, i appreciate her efforts and she makes me feel cared for... yups... so thank you yuying!! i love you!!

bon voyage~!